Life is too short

Well today has been an ok day so far...I just read they news via my friend Jessica from high school that an oil rig blew up. This saddens me soo much, Jessica's husband works on an oil rig and that could have very well been her husband and I couldn't even imagine going through anything like that. It shouldn't take a horrible event like this to happen to make you appreciate your spouse but it sure does put things into perspective. I couldn't imagine my life without Cyle. He is my rock and my best friend, he is always there for me no matter what wether to annoy me LOL or to just give me a shoulder to cry on. I am truly thankful for all that he does for our family and the time he sacrifices to give our family the best life possible.

Honestly I am an emotional wreck lately. This past vacation turned out to be a train wreck rather then a vacation. I ended up being more emotionally drained then I started out. It really opened my eyes that family does indeed truly come first. I think the biggest mistake I made was thinking that the same group I was apart of a while back would be the same. I think after last nights blog I truly have come to terms with it. People change and so did I. I really had amazing time seeing all my friends though. Going to the park with Mel and Laura was awesome :) I also really enjoyed seeing April for that short time. Seeing Carmen was awesome but I do have to admit it just made me miss her more. I cant believe we have been friends since Germany almost 6 years in September, WOW time flies ! Im really thankful that Jeri opened her home up to me and the twins. I also am very grateful for the girls night out to Tybee at the Crab Shack. It was full of good laughs and great food :) I wish things panned out different but I have no control over that and I truly just need to learn to let things go. I think my biggest problem is that I over think things. I try to look out for people and it only back fires. I just wish people understood were I was coming from and knew that my words were not suppose to be harmful in anyway. I truly mean this with every piece of my being. I'm just really sad and hurt :( It will pass though and things will be ok but until then it is going to haunt me.

I am one of those people that have the unique ability to feel other peoples pain. Its both a blessing and a curse. I need to learn how to channel this into a positive way. This ability also is very interesting because I am hard headed so this ability mixed with being stubborn isn't always a good mix.

Ok I am done rambling for today babies are napping so I should be napping too LOL .. Criminal Minds does look pretty tempting to watch tho. Later Gators !